Blah
I don’t feel good
I know - I should
My life is such a blessing
But here I sit
Second-guessing
He’s lying again
Or maybe it never stopped
When did it begin
I hate that God made us so
susceptible to sin
Who knew marriage was so lonely
Like, Am I the one and only?
Does anyone else feel this way?
Is my marriage really a phony?
Mental tournament
Sleepless nights
Stupid little fights
Communication broken
No affectionate as a token
It’s been forever since we’ve spoken
Do you even hear me?
Why can’t we just talk?
Honesty is all I want
But - there's no transparency
Secrets galore
Who’s the newest whore
Distracted from your wife
Apparently, I’m a bore.
You only want to touch me
After you’ve gotten caught
Get away from me, just stop.
Could you just not!?
Why do I have to beg you
Or tell you when to kiss
If we got divorced
It wouldn’t be me that you’d miss
You keep me around to clean
That’s all I am to you
A maid, cook, the nanny
Someone to wipe the splattered poo
& to clean the dirt from your shoe
I feel like nothingness
Literally - I’m a mess
I thought we’d come so far
Best Buddies, another lie
I want to drive far away in my car
Maybe somewhere that it’s hot
Definitely somewhere that you’re not.
This short poem was written in July of 2022
This is the Harsh Reality of Loving a Deceitful Husband
-Kelsey
I believe in the power of the Holy Spirit.
I believe in a God who heals. <3
Clinging to the hope of Christmas.
Internet facts:
The Discover Recovery website says that "the experts" suggest that "it takes generally 90 days to rewire a brain, but everyone is different."
According to addictionhelp.com 34% of sex addicts recover for at least five years
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